Our powerful moments with God don't go unnoticed by the devil, and last weekend he felt particularly threatened by my relationship with God. And I was attacked in a way I've never been attacked before!
The Friday during worship at a retreat I was so close to God in that moment and felt freer than ever before. The pastor who spoke encouraged us to pray on our knees, which I love doing! But as I saw that everyone was doing it I didn't want to. In that moment I was being selfish and instead of focusing on God I was focusing on myself and my need to be different. God took this moment to help me. My flesh wanted to resist but all I wanted in my soul was to kneel and praise Him with my face on the ground.
So why couldn't I just kneel?
He saw how my flesh and soul were battling and being the gracious God He is, helped my soul overcome my flesh. He physically weakened my knees and brought this uncomfortable feeling to my legs that was only relieved when my knees were bent. I slowly went to my knees, feeling my Father's hand gently pressing on me, guiding me down.
When my knees finally hit the cold laminate floor my soul felt a surge of praise, release, and gratitude. God not only reminded me that worship isn't about me, or what others are doing but about Him and He also reminded me that I shouldn't fight my flesh alone.
"For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do." ~Galatians 5:17
Since my flesh was overcome by the Lord and random lies were shut down with the Truth, the devil decided to attack me physically. That night, the first night of the retreat, he sent a demon to prance on me and run around me ALL NIGHT. To combat this strange and new attack I stayed up praying and reading my Bible. However, this little pig like demon was particularly set on upsetting me. He did not cease his torment until the sun came up, I got 30 minutes of sleep that God gracefully made feel like a couple of hours!
The day after I felt called to go to someone about my experience so they could pray over me. I went to my mentor during a worship session and after I shared with her she told me how she couldn't sleep and sensed a demonic presence as well! She went on to describe the demon in detail, matching the description of the one I saw. I hope you can sense my excitement through these words! HOW GOOD IS GOD? In a moment where I felt alone He showed me how I wasn't, not for a second!! The power of prayer is amazing and the best weapon against spiritual attacks!!
As Soldiers in God's army we put a target on our backs daily, and honestly it's hard but even more rewarding. That night as this demon jumped on me and tried to elicit fear, I actually had a smile on my face because I knew and could feel how threatened he was by my relationship with my Father.
We don't often talk about demons and how the devil attacks us, but in 2021 let's talk about it more! Let's not let the devil isolate us from our brothers and sisters in Christ and let's pray more for each other!
I hope you feel encouraged by this part of my testimony, I pray it doesn't elicit fear in your heart but rather hope, confidence and trust in your Heavenly Father.
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